Nov 30, 2009

Depression 2

Like I said, blogging helps, so I'm doing some more now to try to keep this upward trend going.

This morning I decided to get out and run for the first time in a over 2 weeks. I know exercise releases endorphins that help, and I'm using them. Running in the morning felt better. It's nice to see the buzz and activity of the neighborhood getting off to work. I also saw some birds flying around in the cold morning air; reminded me of:

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." (Mt. 10:29-31)

My depression has revolved around thoughts of my own smallness and insignificance, and Jesus speaks straight at that. I just need to remember that, even though my part in the whole scheme of things may be small, God's will is still at work in it.

4 comments:

Saint said...

Haha, never mind my gabber about the Dark Night of the Soul. Probably you weren't getting exercise. Depression, diet and exercise are often linked.

You stop exercising because you get too busy. The business creates stress that you weren't able to relieve from exercise. The stress increases anxiety. Anxiety makes it harder to get motivated to exercise, so you don't exercise. Stir and repeat.

luke said...

I think it's ALL related. I'm going to keep up the running, but my diet could be a problem - have a bad loss of appetite these days.

And I need to keep venting the anxiety away too.

Monk-in-Training said...

Luke,
I wonder if part of this is the realization of the awsome responsibility of caring for another human being, in toto?

That is enough to deperess anyone at times.

Br. James Patrick

luke said...

I'm sure that has something to do with it. I wish I could identify any single thing causing this so I could work on that, but I think it's a number of things. :(